Tuesday, September 21, 2010

I fear. I believe.

My friend Elizabeth once attended a discussion night of sorts, where everyone stood in two lines. Each person took turns, going to the front of those lines. There they said things they believe, and things that they are scared of. When others agreed, they would move to the opposite side of the room. The imagery is beautiful to me, and was to her as she shared in this solidarity and witnessed that she was neither alone in her fears nor her beliefs. Inspired by my friend, I present my own list.

(Sometimes) I fear that I may be living my life wrong.
I fear that I may be a bad librarian.
I fear that the only thing I know how to do well is be a student.
I fear that it will take me a long, long time to get a job.
I fear decisions.
I fear endings.
I fear that I won't ever love someone as strongly as I loved the last person I loved.
I believe in kindness.
I believe in Heavenly Mother.
I believe in truth.
I believe in prayer.
I believe in 8 glasses of water a day.
I believe in fruits and vegetables.
I believe in color.
I believe in spring.
I believe in babies.
I believe in biking, running, dancing, etc.
I believe in planting gardens.
I believe in the power of words.
I believe that people may change. That I may change.
I believe that there is nothing that the road cannot heal.
I believe that there is no place like home.
I believe in happy endings.

3 comments:

kaci + tom said...

i fear and believe in some of those same things. it is nice to know i'm not alone.

Rachel. said...

amen, sister. amen, friend.

e.p. said...

i love your list! my favorite, and one that i am not sure i believe yet but that i want to believe: "I believe that there is nothing that the road cannot heal."