My heart hurts.

Cora held a snake today

She wasn't scared until I was scared.

Spencer to Cora, part IV.

"How much is learned and how much is built in you?"

Birth stories.

My little babe is in between three months and four, and the other week I recorded her birth story, that is also my birth story.

What I didn't say, but could have is this:

+The week before C was born, we got to spend time with best friends.
+The eve before she was born, we got to eat Indian food with another.
+Another pregnant woman was present.
+Many jokes were made about the spicy food sending us into labor.
+It seems to have worked.
+But, it could have also been a storm.
+A very few contractions woke me up at night, but were gone in the morning.
+They came back when I ate my leftovers.
+Spencer ate indian food when he came home, but it no longer smelled good to me, and I asked him to stop. He didn't. (To his credit, he was also in for a long night, and he did brush his teeth afterward.)
+At one point, "Call the midwife!" was actually uttered.
+There were moments when I felt really alone.
+One of these was when I really was alone.
+Others were when I thought my midwives would be with me.
+That they didn't understand how fast I was progressing disappointed and saddened me.
+But I am still glad C was born at home.
+I would not have had that part any differently.

I just really want Cora to marry one of my friend's babies.

Spencer (presumably) to me.

"Cora demands pizza. Cora demands pizza. Cora demands pizza."

Maybe pizza milk?

Are you afraid of the dark?

Sometimes during the first month of Cora's life, I felt scared when it was nighttime. Not because I am scared of the dark, but because I didn't know how many times she would wake up.

It is better now, but I felt it again, just now, when I heard her start to stir from her napping place.

Baby Love-In

1) All seven of these babes were born in their respective homes.
2) All babies do not feel the same, when held.
3) Babies holding hands is the most darling.

(None of the babies are actually holding hands here, but they were. And it was darling.)

Spencer to Cora, III.

"Say 'Mama. Mama.' Do you know who mama is? She's the one who gives you the milk."

Cora has a lot of resolutions.

Roll over.
Crawl.
Walk.
Talk.
etc.

It is going to be a momentous year for her.

Spencer to Cora, II

"Your hugs mean so much more to me when you're in this pink bear costume."